Find The Light Within

I promise promise promise I have been working out and eating well! Its been a whirlwind of time and books and space and meditation and sweat and tears this past two weeks. You know stress can seriously kill people.  I know if I didn’t have a strong heart and soul I would falter so much more when I was down. School has started and with it came a wierd schedule and unfamiliar territory.  But Its been a learning curve of time.  I’m finally getting settled and things are finally feeling normal! I will be posting more frequently! It will definitely be difficult but what isn’t these days.

I think one of my most important things through this battle is keeping a positive attitude. There were a few days in the past few weeks that I let myself down but you know what I picked my head up and started again and its been feeling great. Even tonight I hadn’t worked out and so I did… Now I’m exhausted and going to bed to wake up work out.. go to the post office to send some mail to those I love and then go to work! My mantra to life these days has just simply been…. Don’t hold back.  It comes form a Buddist proverb 

“Know well what leads you forward and what hold you back, and choose the path that leads to wisdom.”

So I didnt exactly do it properly.  I know there is an art to weighing in and all that jazz however.  I wanted to do it this week to show progress by next week.  I need a scale of my own but I used my good friends which I think goes by the .2 So I am officially 204.4.  By next week I hope to be below 200.  I know It will be tough but I have lots of time and even more ambition.  

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(Source: fat-bottomed-girl)

So running in the gym is not as much fun as I remembered… After running outside for so long.. its been an interesting experience running stationary… I am not a fan. Not a fan. But I just came back ran around 1.5 miles then got so bored I did those swingy leg things.. Not as fun as I remembered again! Hopefully Ill be back out tomorrow!! 

I am so reelieved that school starts soon and the gym will be open as well. I havnt been able to run in like 4 days. It been snowy and icy. I’ve made sure to have Jillian Micheals kickin my ass though.  I did run today tho.  Two miles.  Its brilliant.  From my parents house it is exactly one mile to the end of the road.  Im waking up early tomorrow before I go to my cousins christening to do it again! Very excited.  THis week has been difficult with cravings and food.  I think my bad eating habits are just habitual.  Which means that I just have to break the habits to conquer the food.  Any suggestions for breaking those foodie habits?  Need to find good running music too.  I keep listening to the same like 5 songs! Alrighty, I promise I’ll keep more on top of this blog once schools starts.  Ive been between my parents house and my apartment constantly!

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So I ran 1.5 miles today! Which to most runners is a walk in the park but its where I am beginning so I am proud as ever.  I kept my heart-rate up and pushed myself.  I didnt run yesterday like I wanted to because the it kept snowing.  If there is one think I know it is that ice does not help the uncoordinated and the last thing I need is a broken ankle. So I did lots of yoga and gave my muscles a good much needed stretch.  

I learned today the reason why cold weather gear is necessary.  Because when your muscles are hot from your blood pumping… there’s this thing called wind… which could be used as a torture device as far as I’m concerned. I need me some north face but until there I’ll be bearing it for better or worse.  Also I need some gloves because my fingers were pretty and purple after my little 15-20 minute excursion.   

For years it has been the trend that a new year begins and with it a new set of obstacles to jump over, boulders to climb and hoops to jump through and for me it is no different.  

I’ve been overweight for all of my adult life and most of the adolescent life I can remember.  But this year the world is changing.  I am about to graduate college and start a life I’m not even sure how to live yet.  And still the most important thing on my mind is getting healthy.  I know all the steps, I know the process, I know how to do it and I dont have very far to go.  Still it will be no easy feat.  I needed motivation. I needed some sort of something to get me up every day to say put down the chocolate and start running. I’ve found that motivation somewhere between starting yoga and learning how to meditate.  So that motivations has led me to running a marathon.  I’m still not sure which one but I know that in 6 months I’ll be ready for one.  I want to cross that finish line knowing that I’ve succeeded in something I never believed to be possible for myself.  I believe it now.  With the help of a very close friend and my own personal triumphs it begins here.  With this blog… everyday I can document my running, my eating and how I’m feeling about myself, because I truly believe that accountability is everything.  Today I feel inspired and I hope everyday that follows I’ll feel the same.  

The best piece of advice I can give anyone is what I’ve discovered in mediation. Find the light within…hold it in your hands…marvel at its power and use it. Its the most powerful thing you’ll ever learn to use.